sedihhh

sedihh...mmg sedihhh... kalau kita just nk mintak second opinion drp Doktor specialist...tp tiba-tiba kita dilabel sbgai tak tahu.. sbb kita quiry lah, kita mintak second opinion drp doktor... kadang2 aku rasa, baik aku diam je walaupon ade ade bende yg aku quiry psal patient.. 

i'm not totally jumping into absolute diagnosis for the patient. it just based on my observation..i suspected something wrong with patient's tongue structure..it may be true and may be not... so, please stop making a fuss about it.. if there is no problem with it..so, alhamdulillah... 

i'm totally not in a good mood today... so stress.. lots of things actually.. i'm in the middle of solving it one-by-one.. im still in learning process.. dont expect me to master in everything.. i'm still learning... learning to be a better person..better slp...better muslimah...

sometimes i think, it is better just to be like mak cik cleaner... not being stuck in such difficult decision making.. it's hard to make lots of decision in life... i wish i can stop being slp right now... 

maybe i'm a bit emotional right now.. i know!!... i tried to be positive, but somehow.. unconsciously i being turn back into -ve person.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

oh simple things, where have you goneeeeee

oh simple things,
where have you gone,
i'm getting OLD and i need something to rely on,
so tell when you gonna let me in,
i'm getting TIRED and i need somewhere to begin.....

~i'm so confused right now... i don't know why but i feel like becoming speech-language pathologist is not my passion and my dream. on top of that,  i don't feel happy doing it.
~i don't know how to manage this feeling and the worst thing is i don't know what i really want to be...

oh Allah, please guide me...